The other day, I ran into M___. She’s blonde, young, thin, attractive, and intelligent. I run into her, I’d say, perhaps once every 10 days. We sit and talk for hours. It’s nice to sit and talk with someone like that. She’s like a ray of sunshine in my life when I see her. I feel really happy the next day, in a happy smiley jokey mood. Then, after a day, my mood grows dark. It’s kind of disturbing, when someone has that effect on me.

I have to figure out why I’ve let her into my life. Why now? What lesson am I to learn by having her enter my life? Why am I coming into her life? Why at this time in her life? What am I to teach her? There is a mutual attraction between us. It’s almost magnetic in nature. Like attracting like. What are we to do, and what do we want to create from this? A friendship that will last a lifetime, intimacy, or what?

Tis a puzzle I need to figure out.